Nov 17 / 10

Daily Goals

Talk to THREE strangers. Transition using a cold read than tell a story

Head to the gym after work. baaaack and biceps day awww yeah. I'll take one day off my running to let my legs recover for leg day tomorrow.

Carry on a good conversation with at least 2 random customers that come up to my bar. Get them talking about what they do, find out if they own any dogs.

Talked to my first stranger downtown at the heated lamps, opened about how these were easily the best part of downtown calgary. Only ended up staying for a few second as my train came up just as I was finishing up. Stranger number 2 happened at Rundle Station, we made eye contact and I opened by telling her I couldn't feel my hands. I then said "Random story, but this morning..." and told her a story. Went well, she was laughing but her train came and she had to go. Strangers number 3 and 4 were Adams friend and I started a pretty funny conversation with them about our touques and about how they were Co Op Lifers. Goal?! Achieved!

I went to the gym and did Back and Biceps, it felt good. I took the day off running to prepare my legs for today but I honestly dont think I'm going to have time for the gym today. I might have to come home early and plan to go to the gym first thing in the morning tomorrow morning.

I didn't have very many strangers sit at my bar, but I did converse with everyone that did sit down (for the exception of Tim, hes a bit socially awkward). Ted sat down and we had a good conversation about who he was and where he's from. I didn't, however, find out if he had any dogs. The reason I'm going to do this is to prove to myself that I can lead the interaction to get what I want out of it.

My dreams have been really clear lately. Almost as if my head's in the right place so I can remember everything I dream about. This morning I woke up to remember myself approaching women in the club using Ozzie's material "I still cuddle with my teddy bear at night." I have a very strong feeling that the material in that book is going to be very successful and I'm fully planning on using it in the club atmosphere. I also know, being on page 65 of that book, that I must be louder in my interactions. Louder is power from what the book writes, and power attracts women. Ozzie states that he notices that girls giggle alot when he talks to them, its because they're seeking approval. The louder you are the more powerful you are, thus, people around you are going to want your approval. It also stresses the importance of a few other key points where I could find myself falling into the categories they described.

The entertainer. The guy who tells jokes, enticing stories for everyones approval. People can sense that I'm looking for approval so they give it and take it away as they see fit. This also does a major on my self confidence though, because the entertainer performs better when the audience loves him but when they don't his ego falls to pieces. I can relate with this one and say that its time for me to be myself. No holds barred, no approval from anyone needed... my genuine, authentic self. Looking at it in retrospect I'm loud, obnoxious and have a major Big Brother mentality. I pick on people, but feel bad afterwards so I instantly apoligize, than make another joke. I think these past couple months have been good as I've been trying to contain alot of my energy but realisitcally I think I need to learn to express that energy in different areas of my life instead of trying to contain it altogether. It seems that when I try to contain my energy I'm not being true to myself and I can sense that. When I'm not true to myself my body aches for approval from others for this person I'm trying to be when in reality, I'm not.

Yesterday was tough. I need to find a new job, which really sucks. I've grown to not mind the people I work with, they're pretty cool. I cannot make a living where 2 days in a row I take home 10 dollars. If I had a job at a bar downtown even 2, 3 times a week I'd take home closer to 100, 200 dollars which is alot more acceptable than 10. I felt bad yesterday, because I stopped at the Casino on the way home to see if I could turn my 10 into 100. Ended up being no dice and I walked home defeated. I hate that feeling, it sucks, and it wouldn't happen if I was staying on pace with my budget. Nonetheless. Also yesterday, I found thoughts creeping into my head that I'd never step on the Jr Field again while I was working out. I've been trying to figure out the root of those thoughts, as those could be seen as major setbacks. However I could also use that as self motivation and turn that around on myself. "Everyone thought you would never make it, yet here you are."  That's not exactly the case, though. In fact, I have numerous friends and family that told me that I should be playing ball right now instead of wasting my life partying and smoking weed. Of course I laughed at them but I really should have been taking a backseat and listening to what they had to say. I was meant to play football, it's always been me. I keep looking at the television and watching movies and every day I read in the newspaper about someone who's getting paid to do something they love. Whether its the people in the story or the journalist who wrote it, passion is hard to come by these days and when one finds it, they should cling to it and work towards that passion like no tomorrow. I know I'll step on that field again, it's only a matter of time. I'm going to go look at the Colts website right now and check dates for Sunday workouts, actually.